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A much needed talk.
Not sure what’s happening. The moment I’m ready to move on without Hubster, he comes home ready to actually talk. Out of nowhere. I’m unable to trust him, expecting the worst treatment. He has no clue how much he hurt me. Probably never will. He goes from touching base on expectations we have in raising our kids, to ending the conversation about his best friend/ex girlfriend I forbid him to see, the one he confessed his love for when things got hairy between us, a year after seeking out another old flame. He’s feeling sentimental watching old episodes of wonder years and all I can imagine is him wanting to patch things up with his “winnie” before working things out with his own wife. He pretty much ended the conversation before our shift with “The ball is in your court” Gee. Thanks! I was honest in my feelings and expectations, I don’t have an issue with this woman I barely know, nor the woman he looked to rekindle something with. My issue lies with the lack of trust in him as my husband. I expect to be able to work things out for the sake of our kids, and if needed, to end the marriage as peaceably as possible so our kids feel no tension between us. I feel very strongly about raising our kids in a loveless marriage. Its not healthy, its not what I want for my children, who have such sweet personalities. They deserve to be loved and cared for tenderly by the love of their lives. What are we modeling? Nothing worth modeling, that’s for sure.