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611 Days-
Watching people around me poison their world with bitterness and jealousy. I’m actually weirded out by the actions of many people around me. The best I can do is keep silent. I don’t want any part of me to look or sound like them. It’s immature.
Today I had the pleasure of sharing the beginning of my work day with a new social worker for our house. I am looking forward to learning more and connecting further with this woman. She’s so open and easy to talk with. She’s honest about her strengths and weaknesses and vulnerabilities. A divorced woman with two young children. Watching her gives me hope for living in a situation like hers if I needed to. It’s doable, especially if the peace of mind on a regular basis is what’s gained.
I’ve been walking around, enjoying the little things and little conversations with Hubster, with my children, with the people I meet. I’m definitely more interested in true quality time. Relevant games with my children, quality time with my girls.
A normal person experiences trauma and crisis over increments throughout ones lifetime. I seem to be the exception.
I married my husband after a few months of being together. Every moment since, beginning with our wedding day, has been a moment of crisis. We tried to solve our problems and then it fell apart. On our 3 year anniversary I started this blog. Alone and away from my husband. Almost another 700 days passed before I recommitted my time to finishing this project, complete the healing process that I let myself get distracted with.
It was the advise from my aunt to give everything 700 days before seeing things get better.... and we will have survived the hardest part of raising the kiddos.
700 days to journey through what will be the toughest part of our marriage: with three kids under the age of two, confronting depression, and everything else that has been working its way against us.
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