I’ve been in a better mood than most days. Took the kids to school, enjoyed a good vegan Starbucks breakfast: Oatmeal, fruits and nuts and a chai soy latte. 

I shopped a little for me and for Hubster.  Picked up some much needed sweaters and came home to share the wealth.  ”THANK YOU!” 

But the strangest thing. Everything I did just annoyed him. From leaving my bags on the kitchen counter….. Preparing my meal in our house (instead of next door). He had just cleaned the apt and was overly critical of everything I was doing.  At one point, our daughter came in walking with one of my heels on her feet.  Limping around, with a huge smile, Hubster tells her to take mommy’s shoe back where it belongs because mommy won’t do it. 

Wow.

That was my cue to leave the room.  I grabbed my things, and took a much needed nap.  But I was hurt, especially after going out of my way to buy what I thought was a nice sweater for him.  I know my attitude toward his afterwards wasn’t exactly loving, but I worry about where we’re headed.  Sometimes it seems like 30 steps back and one half step forward at a time.  

I have to work harder on faking my smiles and good moods.  I’m trying not to let the critical spirit take over me.  God, this is SO hard!