I’ve noticed my overall attitude and tolerance levels have been low again.  Mostly because I’m not getting the sleep I feel I need.  I’ve tried communicating with Hubster, but feel I get very little support, or understanding, little encouragement “Well, I don’t know what you can do” As he walks away.  

Physically, there is VERY little I can do.  I end work at 11:00pm- pass out around 11:30 and wake up anywhere around 6:30- 7:30am depending on if I’m taking the boys to preschool or not. Our 2 year old never lets me sleep in.  I’m walking around our apartment or driving around half alert- half aware- There is absoultely no room in our schedule to allow me to get the sleep I feel i need. I’ve always thrived off 9-10 hours.  I’m lucky to get 5 hours of uninterrupted sleep as a parent of three toddlers. As much of a blessing this time in our life can be with our kids.  I feel I’m in an earthly hell during the hours I’m trying to sleep.  

I’m spending my afternoons catching up and napping 1-2 hours before work.  

Maybe, when all our kids in school full time, I get feel restored with the propper rest I need.  This waiting/patience thing sucks ass. Moreso when you watch your spouse doing fine/playing games/watching tv shows without empathy towards your needs.  I don’t expect him to do anything, but sometimes, I little “it’s going to pass” or “you’ll be ok” “I’m here if you need anything”.  Just a little support goes a long way.  I’m trying to find the ways to do this for myself.  But it’s hard.  I’m going in this all blind.  I have no idea what I’m doing.