Lots of dreaming these days.  Today I woke up from a dream of being bit by a baby rattlesnake three times on my left leg.  I could see the bites and how the first bite was more infected than the more recent bites.  I also remember trying to prove I was in fact bitten.  Like people around me didn’t believe me, and the bites were somehow fabricated.  I was fighting to find someone that believed me- that cared about what happened to me.

Today is my Friday and I’m slowly continuing the book my Aunt wants me to humor her with.  While today is a noticeable rough and emotional taxing day, I definitely chose to put the stress into perspective and did what I could to eliminate unnecessary tension on my part. 

Hubster was on a transport for about 4 hours of our shift and I worked as minimally as I could- what was originally going to be a left over night, turned out to be quesadillas for everyone.  I used all of one tortilla pan and a few utensils.  Easy cleanup, easy mood.  

I’m trying hard to not let the frustrations of my job affect my mood- to not take personal offense to the dysfunctional junk that surrounds me.  While reading about the studies on mood and how a simple smile can alter not only your mood, but those around you, I put the experiment to test.  Two students, who don’t even live in the house ended up staying to talk with me while there was no other students for them to talk to.  They just sat and talked with me for 30 minutes.  Another student stayed to complete his homework.  I was enjoying the atmosphere of talking about relevant topics and laughter.  While things have been stressful with one student, I definitely chose to not let that event spoil my mood.  And tonight, it worked. 

Day by day.  It’s the only way to not get overwhelmed by everything around.